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At times, I just don't know
How you could be anything but beautiful
I think that I was made for you
And you were made for me
And I know that I won't ever change
Cause we've been friends through rain or shine
For such a long, long time.

Laughing eyes and smiling face
It seems so lucky to just have the right
Or telling you with all my might
You're beautiful tonight

And I know that you won't ever stray
Cause you've been that way from day to day
For such a long, long time

And when you hold me tight
How could life be anything but beautiful
I think that I was made for you
And you were made for me.

It was another lonely night at home, and I hadn't left the couch in three days. I wouldn't admit it to myself, but I was in a deep depression. The only phone calls I would answer were the ones from Sidney and my dad. Dad knew I was in a slump and I had told them about the miscarriage, but for Sidney, to him, I was myself, nothing was wrong. I had my Gordon Lightfoot greatest hits album on repeat and I just laid on the couch picking at my nails. I heard my phone beeping with a new message, but I had no energy to walk across the room and pick it up. Five minutes later, another message, and then another. Damnit. I rolled off the couch and crawled across the floor to get my phone. I am so pathetic. I flipped open my phone to see there were three picture messages from Max. Finally a smile came over my face. Looks like the boys were doing a little shopping in Phoenix, and made their way into a hat store. Each picture was of Max, Colby and Sidney in ridiculous hats. Colby didn't break tradition either, as he tried to kiss Sidney in one of the pictures, but Sidney pulled away. Seemed like every picture I have seen of Colby and Sid, Colby would try and kiss him, but Sidney would pull away.

At that moment I knew I had to get myself out of the house. I knew there was only thing that would pull me out of my funk, and that was shopping for shoes. It wasn't often that I had the urge to spend money, but it hit me hard and I was now excited to get me some new shoes. After a quick shower I pulled on some jeans, a black sweater and then threw one of Sid's gongshow hats on, not the furry one. I figured since I was in the mood for spending money, I might as well get my Christmas shopping done too, I had put that in the back of my head and could only wish that Christmas would just pass right over. The whole drive into downtown, I was trying to think of what I would get Sidney. What would a man that could have anything in the world, want for Christmas? This was going to be impossible. Lingerie? He would like that.

My parents weren't hard to shop for, they liked getting the same gifts each year, my mom perfume and my dad, a nice vintage bottle of wine. My brother and I don't exchange gifts for Christmas anymore, so I didn't have to worry about that. While looking around the mall for something to get Sidney, I was drawn into a shoe store and fell in love with every pair I tried on. Do I really need six new pairs of shoes? Yes, I do. I could barely carry my bags as I left the store with two new pairs of pumps and four pairs of boots. I could hear my phone ringing and I quickly dropped all of my bags and pulled my phone out. "Hey Sid," I smiled trying to hide that I was still depressed. "Hey baby, what are you up to?" "Christmas shopping. I have no idea what to get you, you're too simple," I laughed. "You know what I want for Christmas? I want to spend all day in bed with you and then have a big dinner and stay up late watching 'A Christmas Story'," he laughed right back. Lingerie it is. "We can do that. I miss you Sid, I can't wait for you to get home." "Have you gone to work at all?" "No, I've been at home drawing up designs for the bar and such, just staying busy." I hate that I just lied to him. "Okay, well I will call you tonight after the game, love you." "Love you too."

I knew that if I was going to get lingerie, I wanted it to be yellow and black, bring a little team pride into the bedroom. As I looked through some bras a young sales lady approached me. "Do you need any help finding something?" I looked up at her and told her I what I wanted. "I'm sorry, but are you Sidney Crosby's girlfriend?" My eyes grew wide. "I am," I said in confusion. How does she know that? "I thought I recognized you. I was watching a game with my roommate a little while ago and they were talking about how Sid moved out of Mario's house. Then the camera focused in on you and Mario in a suite," she explained. I didn't know what to say. "You are one lucky lady, I'm sure he'll be the lucky one even more after I get done with you here," she laughed. I like this girl, she reminds me of Colby. She pulled out everything she had in yellow and I was very excited to start trying things on. "So what is your name?" I asked her as she took me back to the dressing room. "I'm Melissa," she smiled. "Nice to meet you Melissa, I'm Avery." The first baby doll I tried on I didn't like because it was too girly looking with flowers on it. I looked through the pile of things and found a very sexy corset. Very bright yellow with black trim along the top and bottom. I slipped it on and stepped outside to have Melissa tie it up for me. "Wow you look hot, here try this on, I just found it." She handed me what looked like a mini skirt with black ruffles and yellow thread. I stepped back into the dressing room, slipped out of my jeans and slipped the skirt on over my thong. Wow. I took my hat off and stepped back outside. "Damn girl, maybe you shouldn't get lingerie you might give the poor boy a heart attack," Melissa laughed as she walked around me. "Perfect," I smiled.

"So are you a Penguins fan?" I asked Melissa as she rang me up. "Not really, my roommate is. I'm a huge Steelers fan though, football is more of my game." She really was adorable, I could really see her and Colby getting along really well. I quickly grabbed a scrap piece of paper and a pen and wrote my phone number down. "There's going to be a home game next Wednesday, if you and your roommate would like to come, give me a call," I smiled handing her the paper. "Oh wow thanks, yeah I will ask him what he's doing, but I'm sure he will cancel everything to go to a game." Male roommate? Hmm. I thanked her for her help and decided it was time for me to go home and take a nap before the game came on.