I couldn't hide my blushing, I couldn't believe that Colby was going into so much detail about the first time I ever got drunk. "I think at some point you said you were going to get into the hot tub, so I went outside with you and you striped down to your underwear and got in the hot tub. You were begging me to get in with you until you saw a frog jump over your head and you jumped out and ran inside. Twenty minutes later you were in some of my sweats and threatening to kill every single frog that you ever come across for the rest of your life." Oh the memories of that night were so blurred to me. That was so long ago. "Where was this at again?" Sidney asked still laughing. "Saskatoon up at our house, Avery spent a good chunk of the summer with us. She turned to alcohol because it's so damn boring out there." "Am I the only one that hasn't seen the girl in her underwear yet?" Max shouted pouring everyone some more wine. My head fell into the palms of my hands and I couldn't fight back the embarrassment any longer. "What? It was just a question," Max laughed.
I sat on Sidney's lap after dinner and more stories were going around, everyone trashing the other. "Want to get out of here soon?" Sidney whispered into my ear. "I'm ready when you are," I smiled kissing him on the cheek. He lifted me up off of his lap and we said our goodbyes to everyone. "Are you mad at Max?" I asked him as we climbed into the car. "No, why would I be mad at him?" "You were ignoring him all night and he kept giving me funny looks while looking at you." I couldn't help but laugh a little. "I just didn't like the comment he made about you in your underwear, that's all," he sounded a little sad in his voice. "Well doesn't it feel good to know you are coming home with me." He reached over and grabbed my hand and we were on our way. After a few moments of silence I remember the conversation Max and Sidney were having behind me when we first showed up. "Hey, what was with Max asking you if you had moved in yet?" Sidney laughed a little, "he has this idea that I need to get out of Mario's house as soon as possible and the only way that will happen is if I meet a girl." "Sounds like there were others you have done this with? Is that what the bag is for? It's filled with your stuff?" I was getting a little irritated and I didn't know why. "I am just bringing some clothes over, toothbrush, you know the essentials. There has only been one other girl though, and I got screwed over big time, turns out she was after my money, and she wasn't the brightest crayon in the box so it was a big mistake on my part." Don't get mad, there is no reason to get mad right now. "So you're using me to get out of Mario's house?" Damnit Avery. "No, hell no. Why would you think that? If you don't want me to bring my stuff over, then I won't. I will go home tonight if that's what you want. I'm really scared about this Avery, I know we haven't known each other that long, but when I think about you there are no worries in the world. It's just you and me. That's what I want, is a relationship where I don't have to worry about shit. I feel like we just flow together, ya know? I am in no way using you. I'm scared I am going to say the wrong thing, but I feel this connection with you, it's very similar to what I feel when I'm out on the ice. It just fits, it feels right. I'm sorry if I upset you." It does feel right. "I'm sorry for getting mad, I shouldn't have raised my voice like that. I guess I'm just scared because I've been screwed over twice now, the only two real relationships in my life, well one really since the first one wasn't even a relationship. You just have to promise me, if you do slowly move in with me, you're not going to screw me over and break my heart. I want you at my house as much as possible, because I know with your games and with me trying to get into med school we aren't going to see each other that much, and it will be nice to come home to someone, ya know? Do you think we are getting ahead of ourselves?" "I think we need to do what feels right, and spending as much time together as possible is what feels right. I feel lost and confused when you're not around. I can't function right. Like when I'm on the ice, I know what I need to do, when I'm with you I know what I need to do. When I'm sitting at home alone, I don't think I can even tie my own shoelaces." He laughed a little and we grew silent once again. Oh Sidney, I love you. My eyes grew wide, how can I think that I love him, I barely know him. Shut up Avery before you screw a good thing up.
I sat on Sidney's lap after dinner and more stories were going around, everyone trashing the other. "Want to get out of here soon?" Sidney whispered into my ear. "I'm ready when you are," I smiled kissing him on the cheek. He lifted me up off of his lap and we said our goodbyes to everyone. "Are you mad at Max?" I asked him as we climbed into the car. "No, why would I be mad at him?" "You were ignoring him all night and he kept giving me funny looks while looking at you." I couldn't help but laugh a little. "I just didn't like the comment he made about you in your underwear, that's all," he sounded a little sad in his voice. "Well doesn't it feel good to know you are coming home with me." He reached over and grabbed my hand and we were on our way. After a few moments of silence I remember the conversation Max and Sidney were having behind me when we first showed up. "Hey, what was with Max asking you if you had moved in yet?" Sidney laughed a little, "he has this idea that I need to get out of Mario's house as soon as possible and the only way that will happen is if I meet a girl." "Sounds like there were others you have done this with? Is that what the bag is for? It's filled with your stuff?" I was getting a little irritated and I didn't know why. "I am just bringing some clothes over, toothbrush, you know the essentials. There has only been one other girl though, and I got screwed over big time, turns out she was after my money, and she wasn't the brightest crayon in the box so it was a big mistake on my part." Don't get mad, there is no reason to get mad right now. "So you're using me to get out of Mario's house?" Damnit Avery. "No, hell no. Why would you think that? If you don't want me to bring my stuff over, then I won't. I will go home tonight if that's what you want. I'm really scared about this Avery, I know we haven't known each other that long, but when I think about you there are no worries in the world. It's just you and me. That's what I want, is a relationship where I don't have to worry about shit. I feel like we just flow together, ya know? I am in no way using you. I'm scared I am going to say the wrong thing, but I feel this connection with you, it's very similar to what I feel when I'm out on the ice. It just fits, it feels right. I'm sorry if I upset you." It does feel right. "I'm sorry for getting mad, I shouldn't have raised my voice like that. I guess I'm just scared because I've been screwed over twice now, the only two real relationships in my life, well one really since the first one wasn't even a relationship. You just have to promise me, if you do slowly move in with me, you're not going to screw me over and break my heart. I want you at my house as much as possible, because I know with your games and with me trying to get into med school we aren't going to see each other that much, and it will be nice to come home to someone, ya know? Do you think we are getting ahead of ourselves?" "I think we need to do what feels right, and spending as much time together as possible is what feels right. I feel lost and confused when you're not around. I can't function right. Like when I'm on the ice, I know what I need to do, when I'm with you I know what I need to do. When I'm sitting at home alone, I don't think I can even tie my own shoelaces." He laughed a little and we grew silent once again. Oh Sidney, I love you. My eyes grew wide, how can I think that I love him, I barely know him. Shut up Avery before you screw a good thing up.
I walked up to the front door, searching through my purse. Are you kidding me, where are my keys? Sidney grabbed hold of my arm and pulled me behind him. "What's wrong?" I asked as he slowly made his way to the front door, and that's when I noticed the window next to the door was smashed. "Babe, get in the car and call 911, I'm going to go inside and check it out." He walked up to the door and opened it, and it was unlocked. I knew this didn't feel right, "Sidney, don't go in there, come out here, and let's just wait until the cops come," I yelled for him as I pulled my cell phone out. I didn't know what to do, I stood there frozen and finally called 911. "911, what's your emergency?" "Yes, somebody broke into my house, and my boyfriend just went inside to see what is going on, but the window next to my door is broken and the door was unlocked." "Is there anyone inside?" "I don't know he just went in, and I yelled for him to come back outside, but he didn't answer." I began to panic as a few minutes went by and finally the cops arrived. "Your boyfriend is inside? What is his name?" one of the police officers asked me. "Sidney," I answered as I began to shake. I stayed outside with one of the officers as three others went inside. "We're going to need an ambulance we have a man down bleeding, and he's unconscious," I heard a voice come over the radio. I began to hyperventilate. Oh my god, they killed Sidney. He's dead. The officer pulled me into his arms as I began to freak out, wanting to run inside. Another officer came outside putting his gun back into his holder. Just as he approached me an ambulance pulled up in the driveway. "Miss, your boyfriend, Sidney, he was attacked by the burglar and was knocked unconscious, he is awake now and should be just fine, but the burglar must have taken off after that. There is no one else inside. We're going to have him taken to the hospital to have him checked out. He is probably going to need a few stitches, but I'm going to have to ask you to not go inside, and wait until the paramedics bring him out." Oh he's alive. Oh thank god. "Why can't I go inside?" "It would just be best if you stayed out here."
Why is this shit happening to me? I held onto Sidney's hand as we went to the hospital in the back of the ambulance. "I'm okay Avery, I'm okay. I didn't see him at all though, I could hear something in the closet, and I went to look and the fucker hit me with something. I don't remember anything after that." "Sid, calm down baby, it's okay. As long as you're okay, I'm okay." I couldn't hide my tears anymore. Why would somebody do this to him? Was it someone I knew, or was it completely random? I wanted to be angry, but I couldn't, I didn't want Sidney to see me angry. Sidney went to say something but he was having trouble keeping his eyes open. "What's wrong?" I shouted as the paramedics continued to work on him. "He lost a lot of blood, we need to get him to stop bleeding," I heard one of them say. Sidney stay strong baby, I need you. I was pushed aside and the paramedics continued to work on him. Damnit this is all my fault, this happened in my house.
I sat in the waiting room of the hospital and was just waiting for something, anything but no one could give me any information. I pulled my phone out and called Colby, and I couldn't control my tears when he answered the phone very chipper. "Colby, I need you, I need you to come be with me." "Avery, calm down, what's wrong? What happened?" "We're at Allegheny hospital, Sid was attacked in my house, it got broken into. I don't know what's going on, no one will tell me anything but he's bleeding pretty bad, from his head. Come quick, please." "I'll be right there, you need to call Mario, and I will call his parents." With that, Colby hung up the phone and I looked through my phone for Mario's number. I didn't have it. I ran around the hospital frantically and finally a nurse gave me Sidney's cell after much begging. "Nathalie, it's Avery. There's been an accident, Sidney is in the hospital." "Which hospital?" "Allegheny." "We will be right there." I slumped down into my chair just waiting for any sort of news. I didn't even acknowledge Colby or Mario when they showed up, I was just staring out into the open air. "Avery . . . okay . . . Avery . . . me?" My head popped up and I looked at Colby. "Sorry, what?" "He's going to be okay, he's awake and they stopped the bleeding. They are going to keep him for a few days. You can stay with me for awhile okay?" I couldn't say anything all I could do was shake my head. "Avery?" "No, I'm not going to leave his side. I can't Colby, this is all my fault. I have to tell him I'm sorry." Colby kneeled down in front of me, grabbing my hands in his. "This is not your fault. You can't say that Avery. This was not your fault." "Avery, Sidney is asking for you." I heard Mario say toward me and I looked up at him through my tears.
"Avery," Sidney whispered as I walked into his room. "Sid, I am so sorry. I am so sorry." The only words that I could say. I didn't know what to do, I couldn't even bring myself to look at him. "Avery, this isn't your fault," he said with a hint of a chuckle. "That's what Colby told me, but it is." I looked up at him and he was just smiling at me. "How can you be smiling right now?" "I got hit in the head, and I might have lost some blood, but I am strong Avery. I am just happy it was me going into the house and not you. You might leave me right now, I might scare you away, but Avery, I'm pretty sure I love you and it's not from the blood lose," he once again laughed. "You love me?" Did you honestly just ask him that? Two weeks. That has to be a new record. "Yes Avery, I love you, and I am scared shitless that I am going to screw this up, so just help me out okay." I couldn't help but smile. I could only nod my head toward him. Say it back!!
I sat in the waiting room of the hospital and was just waiting for something, anything but no one could give me any information. I pulled my phone out and called Colby, and I couldn't control my tears when he answered the phone very chipper. "Colby, I need you, I need you to come be with me." "Avery, calm down, what's wrong? What happened?" "We're at Allegheny hospital, Sid was attacked in my house, it got broken into. I don't know what's going on, no one will tell me anything but he's bleeding pretty bad, from his head. Come quick, please." "I'll be right there, you need to call Mario, and I will call his parents." With that, Colby hung up the phone and I looked through my phone for Mario's number. I didn't have it. I ran around the hospital frantically and finally a nurse gave me Sidney's cell after much begging. "Nathalie, it's Avery. There's been an accident, Sidney is in the hospital." "Which hospital?" "Allegheny." "We will be right there." I slumped down into my chair just waiting for any sort of news. I didn't even acknowledge Colby or Mario when they showed up, I was just staring out into the open air. "Avery . . . okay . . . Avery . . . me?" My head popped up and I looked at Colby. "Sorry, what?" "He's going to be okay, he's awake and they stopped the bleeding. They are going to keep him for a few days. You can stay with me for awhile okay?" I couldn't say anything all I could do was shake my head. "Avery?" "No, I'm not going to leave his side. I can't Colby, this is all my fault. I have to tell him I'm sorry." Colby kneeled down in front of me, grabbing my hands in his. "This is not your fault. You can't say that Avery. This was not your fault." "Avery, Sidney is asking for you." I heard Mario say toward me and I looked up at him through my tears.
"Avery," Sidney whispered as I walked into his room. "Sid, I am so sorry. I am so sorry." The only words that I could say. I didn't know what to do, I couldn't even bring myself to look at him. "Avery, this isn't your fault," he said with a hint of a chuckle. "That's what Colby told me, but it is." I looked up at him and he was just smiling at me. "How can you be smiling right now?" "I got hit in the head, and I might have lost some blood, but I am strong Avery. I am just happy it was me going into the house and not you. You might leave me right now, I might scare you away, but Avery, I'm pretty sure I love you and it's not from the blood lose," he once again laughed. "You love me?" Did you honestly just ask him that? Two weeks. That has to be a new record. "Yes Avery, I love you, and I am scared shitless that I am going to screw this up, so just help me out okay." I couldn't help but smile. I could only nod my head toward him. Say it back!!
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